Something for me.

Well, here I am at the end of another day. Filled with much of the same stuff as every other day. but, today was a little different. I took some time out for me. My husband, who was out of town on Valentines day, got me a gift package for a massage and a pedicure. Well, today I used them. We all drove to the salon, and then he took the kids while I went in to be pampered. This is something that doesn't happen too often. I always feel obligated to attend to everyone elses needs and not look out for my own.
I think this may prove to be a challenging road ahead. Learning how to take care of myself after years of neglect. I have noone to blame but myself. I also know that only I can help myself. I want to be able to serve my family, but not at the expense of time for myself.
So, this is my road to discovery. To spend time writing and trying to figure out what I need and what my family needs so that we can have more peace in our home with all needs being met. I love my family and I want to be able to give them my best.
Maybe I should begin with all the wonderful things they do for me. My husband is so very patient with me and respects me for who I am, and who I could be. He loves me no matter what. I am grateful for that. In fact, he has incouraged me for years to take time for me.
Now maybe in these quiet moments I can begin to figure out who I am and where my life is going.